EMPIISA EYA MUKAAGA: Kwata Obuzibu mu Ngeri Ezizimba

“Bw’oba oddukidde n’abantu abatambula ku bigere ne bakukooya, onooyisa otya ng’olina okuvuganya n’embalaasi? Era bw’oba osituka mu nsi ey’emirembe ne wekubiddwa, onooyisa otya mu mitendera gya Yoludaani?” Yeremiya 12:5

Mu kiseera kyaffe ekisooka mu Korea, twafuna enkyukakyuka n’obutakkaanya mu mpisa z’abantu abaali bakozi bannaffe mu buweereza. Awo mu kiseera ekyaddirira, nateekebwa okuba omukulembeze ow’ekiseera (acting supervisor) era omukulembeze wa bboodi y’eggwanga. Obutakkaanya obwaaliwo mu kiseera ekisooka bwali nga pikniki bwe bugeraageranywa ku bwaali mu kiseera ekyokubiri. Naye newankubadde nga byali binyivu nnyo, twafuna amagezi ag’omuwendo n’okukula mu bulamu bwaffe n’obuweereza olw’obulumi obwo. Byalaga engeri Katonda gy’ayigirizaamu n’avaamu ebirungi mu bizibu ebireetera amaziga. Wabula mu kiseera ekyo, akatyabaga ako kaalabika nga kakyamu nnyo era kaali kyesigamiziddwa ku ndowooza n’okutegeera okwali tekwa mazima.

Okuyiga mu Biseera by’Akabenje n’Obuzibu

Mu Omudde 2, twayiga nti Katonda atugezesa era atuyigiriza okwesiga mu ye ng’akozesa okunyigirizibwa okungi mu mbeera z’abantu. Akabenje (crisis) ke kiseera ky’okunyigirizibwa okweyongera. Katonda anoonyereza okufuna okwagala kwaffe okw’amaanyi okutuuka okusingawo mu mutima gwe mu mitendera gy’akabenje egy’olubereberye, alyoke atutambuze mu yo okutuuka ku nkomerero. Ekivaamu ku nkomerero kiri nti omukristaayo aba wa maanyi okusingawo, nga wa bukugu era nga wa buvunaanyizibwa obw’omwoyo obweyongera, ng’afunye obumanyirivu obuziba ku Katonda n’obuyinza obw’omwoyo obukirambika.

Obumanyirivu bwange mu kutta kulya n’okudduka amarathon bwanyigiriza nti okuziyiza n’okugumira mu biseera by’okugezesebwa biva nnyo mu kusooka okukola ebyesalirwawo ebinywevu era ebikakafu. Omuntu bw’aba amaze okusalawo, asobola okuteeka “ekisalawo” kye ku neutral, ate “ekikola” ne kiva ku automatic pilot. Osobola okugumira obuzibu bw’okutta kulya singa tokimala kiseera kyonna ng’osalawo nti “siri kulya.” Era osobola okugumira ennaku n’okukoowa kw’omarathon singa tosalawo buli kilomita nti ojja kudduka okutuuka ku nkomerero. Obumanyirivu buyamba, naye okunywerera ku kusalawo okw’olubereberye kye kisinga obukulu.

Ne Yesu kennyini “yeyongera mu bulamu bwe nga yeesalirawo okugenda e Yerusaalemi.” Kino kiraga nti yali amaze okusalawo — tuyinza n’okugamba nti yali amanyiddwa ddala — okugumira omusaalaba n’okunywerera ku kusalawo kwe. Njukira bwe nali nga mpulira mu mutima ku lunaku olw’ama-35 olw’okutta kulya kwange (Lwakusatu, 11 June 1979), bwe nasoma Luka essuula 9 ne 10. Enkola Yesu gye yalina mu mutima — nti “okukuŋŋaanyizibwa n’okulumbibwa kuluma nnyo” — yantambula nnyo. Enkyusa gye nali nsoma yali egamba nti Yesu, bwe yamala okusalawo, “yatambulanga nga ayolekedde Yerusaalemi n’omwoyo ogw’ekyuma” (Luka 9:51, Living Bible). Yesu, Omulabirizi waffe, yalaga engeri entuufu ey’okuddamu mu biseera by’akabenje n’obumalirivu obutuukiridde. Ku ffe, okunyigirizibwa kwe tugumira kwo kukozesebwa okutufuula nga ye. Enkola gye tulaga mu kubonaabona eraga ensi etutunuulira nti Kristo ali munda mu ffe. Akabenje kaleetera okunyigirizibwa okw’enjawulo okuviiramu obumalirivu n’okugumira.

Naye waliwo ekintu ekirala. Yesu “yeetoowaza n’afuuka omuwulize okutuuka ku kufa” (Abafiripi 2:8). Okufa okw’ekivundu kwe yayitaamu kwalaga okweewaayo kwa Mwana wa Katonda eri enteekateeka ya Kitaawe. Tetumanyi bulungi oba waliwo eby’okulongoosa ebirala ebyali bikyetaagisa mu Yesu mu by’okuyiga okuwuliza; naye ku ffe, okulongosa okwo kusobola okubaamu ekigendererwa ekikulu mu biseera by’akabenje. Mu biseera ebyayita, kyali kikulu nnyo gye ndi okuba omutuufu. Nnali nempalana nnyo, nga nziŋŋaanya empaka. Emirundi mingi okusinga bwe kyali kya magezi, nnayagalanga abantu bamanye nti ndi mutuufu. Bwe ntunulira embeera yange ey’edda — nga nnina ekikutu ekikakafu n’omutima ogukaluba — nkiraba nti nnali nzeetaaga nnyo akabenje Katonda kwe yakkiriza mu 1979.

Lwaki Enkyukakyuka Ebeera Eyetaagisa

Okunyigirizibwa ku muntu ayita mu biseera by’akazibu (crisis) kuba kwetaagisa nnyo mu kumutegeka okuba omwetegefu — era n’okwagala nnyo okukyuka. Katonda takkiriza kutuleka nga tuli mu mbeera zaffe ezitannakulakulana oba ezitakulaakulana bulungi. Akkiriza obuzibu okujja ku ffe tulyoke tukule. Buli lwe tusigala nga tuli bwe tuli, tetubeera na kisaanyiizo ky’akyuka. Akatundu k’abantu katutwala mu mbeera ennungi gye tumanyidde. Mu by’okusoma ku nkyukakyuka, abasomi bayita kino “okuleeta okusanyalaza (dissonance)” — okusobola okuleeta obutali bumativu ku mbeera eriwo, abantu ne batandika okwagalira ddala okutwala empya. Katonda, omukyusa asinga bonna, naye alaga nga ayinza okuleeta okusanyalaza mu bulamu bwaffe olw’okuba twetegefu okukyuka. Akazibu kaba kwetaagisa kubanga tuketaaga.

Mu ttobazzi lya 1979, nagenda ku lukungaana lw’abamisonaali n’abakulembeze b’ekkanisa mu bitundu bya Asia e Hong Kong. Kyali tekinnatuuka na mwaka gumu okuva lwe twatandika ekiseera kyaffe ekyokubiri mu Korea, era nali wamu ne pasita gwe twabadde tuyita Rev. Mr. Park okuva mu Korea. Kyategeerekeka nti okutabulwatabulwa okwabadde kutulemesa okukula mu Korea tekuluma ffe bokka, naye kwali kulabika ne eri abalala. Natandika okusaba n’okusingawo ku bizibu bino, era awo we nnasalira okutta kulya okumala ennaku 40.

Ennaku ntono zokka oluvannyuma, omukulembeze w’abamisonaali b’ekibiina kyaffe yajja okutulambula mu Korea n’abaako lukungaana lw’abapasita. Olwo, nze ne Char twabatwala mu mmotoka okutuuka e Seoul we baali bagenda okusaanyira ennyonyi eya Amerika. Mu lugendo olwo olw’essaawa bbiri, nagamba Jeff n’omukyala we Ann nti nnali njagala okutta kulya n’okusaba okumala ennaku 40 okusobola okulaba nga ekkanisa mu Korea esumululwa. Yagamba nti bwe ye yakola okutta kulya okw’ennaku ezo emyaka emabega, ye yakyuka nnyo okusinga enkyukakyuka gye yalaba mu mbeera. Era yakkiriza nti nnagenda kukikola.

Twatuse mu Seoul nga tetunnava mu mmotoka, nze ne Char ne tubagamba ku kwolesebwa Mary, mukyala wa pasita mu Amerika, gwe yalaba ku ffe emyezi nga 12 emabega. Mu kwolesebwa okwo, yalaba olunyiriri oluwanvu lw’Abasia nga basumululwa okuva mu bukomole n’okutambula mu ddembe nga tubakulembera. Mu birowoozo byaffe, okuba nga tuli ku mutwe gw’olunyiriri kyategeeza nti emirimu gyaffe mu Asia gyandibadde gya mugaso era gya bibala bingi. Okukulembera kwaffe kwandireese abantu mu bintu ebipya mu mwoyo. Kwolesebwa okwo kwatubeerera kisaanyiizo okumala kumpi omwaka gumu.

Ann teyasobola kitegeera bulungi. Yalowooza nti twali tusaka obuvunaanyizibwa, ekitiibwa n’amaanyi ku mutwe gw’olunyiriri. Yatukankana, ffe ne tukuba ebikonge. Mu kiseera ekyo twali twakaaba ebikonge bingi nnyo ku lw’obulungi bw’ekkanisa. Twategeera nti ekifo kyaffe si kya kwenywezaamu wabula kya buvunaanyizibwa mu maaso ga Mukama. Okututegeerako bubi n’okutuvumirira okw’amaanyi bwe kwo okuva eri abo abaatusindika mu Korea kyali kussa ku mutima nnyo. Nkiwandiika wano kubanga lino ly’ekika ky’okunyigirizibwa akazibu gye kuteeka ku muddu wa Katonda. Oba kyali kya bwenkanya oba si kya bwenkanya si ky’ekikulu wano. Ekikulu kiri nti okunyigirizibwa ku muntu kuyinza okuleeta okwagala Katonda okusinga n’obwangu obw’obwennyini obuleeta okwetegefu okukyuka.

Enkola Gy’Okuddamu Kw’Olaga Buli Kimu

Katonda atwagala era atwesiga — emirundi mingi n’okusinga bwe twesiga ffe ffekka. Ye amanyi obusobozi bwaffe; ffe tetubumanyi bulungi. Era amanyi bulungi engeri gy’akozesaamu omuwendo omutuufu ogw’okunyigirizibwa ng’ayita mu biseera eby’obuzibu. Obuzibu ssi bwo buzibu; bwe butegeka ffe. Ekizibu ddala kye tusaanidde okukyusa, era Katonda akozesa obuzibu okutuufuula abaagaliza okukyuka. Kubanga Katonda amanyi kye tusobola okwetikka n’obusobozi bwaffe obw’okukulaakulana, amaanyi g’obuzibu ge tusisinkana galaga obukulu bw’ekitiibwa ky’atutuusaako. Ate era Katonda amanyi bulungi engeri ffe gye tuli — engoye z’emitwe gyaffe, obutajjukira kwaffe, obunafu bw’emmeeme zaffe, n’amalala gaffe agatutangira okuyigira gy’ali. N’olwekyo amanyi omuwendo gw’okunyigirizibwa gwe yeetaaga okukozesa okutufuula abaagaliza okukyuka.

Enkola gye tuddamu mu biseera eby’obuzibu kye kintu ekikulu ddala — mu mazima, enkola yaffe ye kintu ekikulu. Enkola gye tuddamu ku buzibu ye nkulu okusinga okugonjoola obuzibu obwo mu nkola ya Katonda ey’okutukulaakulanya. Ffe twombi tumanyi abantu abaasangamu ebizibu, naye tebayigira kintu kyonna era tebakulaakulana mu mpisa. Tewali ayagala kusasula ate n’atabona birungi by’akoze. Mu biseera by’obuzibu, si nsonga oba tusasula oba nedda — tujja kusasula. Naye tugenda kufuna amagoba g’okulongoosa empisa zaffe? Bwe tuddamu mu ngeri entuufu — n’omwoyo ogw’obwetoowaze n’okuyigiriza — ekisuubizo ky’Ebyawandiiko kituyamba nnyo:

“Muteekerezeze mu maaso ga Mukama, era alibayimusa” (Yakobo 4:10).

“Bino byonna bijjiddwa okukebera okukkiriza kwammwe — okw’omuwendo ogusinga ogwa zaabu, era newaakubadde zaabu eyonoonerwa omuliro, kyokka ekkiriza lyammwe lirina okulangirirwa nga ddala ly’amazima, era lirireeta ettendo, ekitiibwa n’ekisa ng’Yesu Kristo alirabisibwa” (1 Peetero 1:7).

Okukakasa Okusisinkana Ebiseera eby’Obuzibu

Katonda tayagala kutulekera mu mbeera etatula oba etatukuziddwa bulungi. Nsobola okwogerako ebiseera musanvu eby’obuzibu (crises) ebyampitako okuva lwe nava mu maka mu 1962. Buli lwe byanjitukako, ne nteekwa okwewombeeka mu maaso ga Mukama — emirundi mingi nga nkozesa okutta kulya n’okusaba. Kubanga buli kizibu kyatuuka ne kituukiriza ekigendererwa kyakyo, nsobola n’okutegeeza buli lusomo lukulu lwe nayiga mu buli kizibu, nga naawe bw’osobola okuzuula ebyo byayiga mu byo byo.

Emirundi emirala Abakristaayo bayita mu bizibu ne balowooza nti Katonda oba Setaani abali okulonda baleme okukola ng’abantu abalala, ng’abali kubasanga mu mbeera embi okusinga. Naye amazima gali nti si bwe biri. Buli muntu ayita mu bizibu. Bonna bayita mu pulogulaamu eno ey’okutendekebwa, naye si bonna bagifunamu amagoba mu ngeri y’emu. Omukristaayo yenna alina obuzito, okugumira, amaanyi g’omwoyo, oba amagezi ag’okuwabula abalala abayita mu kusoomoozebwa, naye ye kennyini aba amaze okuyita mu “kutendekebwa” okwo.

Obuzibu tebubeera bumu mu maanyi. Bubonooka nga bweyongera okunyikira mu myaka nga Katonda atuyamba okuteeka emirandira gyaffe mu ye ne mu Kigambo kye mu bwangu n’obuzito. Si biseera by’obuzibu byokka ebyeyongera mu maanyi, wabula waliwo ekimu ekitera okuba ekisinga obunene. Engeri gye tukwataamu ekyo ekikulu esobola okutusanyusa oba okutuzikiriza — oba okutuzaala mu kutumenya. Kiba kirungi okusalawo okuva mu maaso nga wayinza okuddamu otya singa kizibu kyo kituuka. Mu kiseera ekyo, enneewulira zaffe ku butali butuukirivu, embeera, oba abantu abali mu kizibu zibeera nnene nnyo ne tutamanyi engeri gye twandiddemu. Kakka okuba nti kizibu kijja kituuke mu biseera ebimu — era weetegeke okukisanga.

Byo Bye Nayiga Mu Kizibu Kyange Ekisinga Obunene

Obuzibu butera okuba ng’olusozi lw’amazzi olugabanya obulamu mu “eby’edda” n’“eby’oluvannyuma” lw’ekizibu ekikulu ennyo. Byo bye tuyiga mu kizibu ekyo bifuuka byamaanyi nnyo okutuuka nga tetuddayo kuba bantu be twali — era tusanyukira ekyo. Bye nayiga mu kizibu kyange ekisinga obunene, awamu n’ekiseera eky’okutta kulya n’okusaba ekyakiragirira, byampamba mu myaka emingi egy’obuweereza egyabala ebibala okuva mu 1979 okutandika.

Mu Ssuula 5 twalaba ebimu ku ebyaleetera okutta kulya okw’ennaku 40. Twalaba nti waaliwo enkola bbiri ez’enjawulo ez’okutambuza ekkanisa mu Korea: emu yali ey’okuzimba ekkanisa enkulu ennyo mu kifo kimu — ekiteeso kya Rev. Park; endala yali ey’okuyamba abakozi baffe abato okutandika amakanisa mangi mu ggwanga lyonna — ekiteeso kyange. Mu ssuula eyo twasoma ebigambo ebimu okuva mu byewandiiko by’ennaku zange ezisooka mu kusaba. Ekyali kinyumira omutima gwange ennyo, ojja kukijjukira, kyali obulungi n’obulungi bw’ekkanisa okuba n’obwenzi obw’okukula.

Nga okutta kulya bwe kweyongeranga, nalekera awo okusoma ebitabo ebirala byonna okuggyako Baibuli yokka. Ekigambo kya Katonda kyeyongera okuba ekya muwendo, nga kiramu, kinsanyusa, era kinkwata ku mutima. Ekigambo kya Katonda ekiramu kyafuuka ekya ddala eri nze, era buli lunnyiriri lwabanga lujjudde amazima ag’omuwendo omungi. Kino kyali kityo nnyo nti ku lunaku lwa 17 (Lwakuna, Ssaabalaza 24), nawandika bino wammanga:

Nnyumiddwa nnyo ekigambo kya Katonda. Siribangako kyonna mu bulamu bwange nga kiramu, kijjudde eby’obugagga n’amagoba agasinga bwe kiri leero. Kindaze ekifaananyi eky’amaanyi, obugagga, obuwanguzi, obuwanguzi obukulu n’emikisa. Singa tusobola okufuna kino mu mulimu gwaffe mu Korea, obunafu bwonna, enjala n’obuzibu bwonna wano biba byabadde bya mugaso. Namala akawungeezi nga nsaba eby’amagero eby’okuwonya n’okutuukirizibwa okw’ebintu byonna mu bujjuvu ebyandaze Ekigambo kya Katonda. Okusaba kulwana. Nsimba okuva nga 8:30 ez’oku makya okutuuka nga 6:00 ez’olweggulo buli lunaku mu kigambo n’okusaba. Ndowooza nti mu lunaku lumu namala ng’essawa nga ssatu mu Kigambo n’essawa nga mukaaga n’ekitundu mu kusaba.

Enkola eyo yagenda mu maaso okutuuka ku nkomerero y’okutta kulya. Namala obudde bungi mu kusaba, ate obusigaddeko mu Kigambo. Nnakwatanga bulungi byonna bye nayiganga. Kyali nga Mukama waffe Yesu yennyini atudde wampi ku ntebe gye nasomeranga n’andaga essomo ku ddala essomo. Nga okutta kulya bwe kweyongeranga, amasomo gaafuuka ag’abantu era agakwata ku bulamu bwange nnyo. Nga tekinnaggwa, natandika okufaayo nnyo ku kwetowaza, okwenenya ku bukakafu bw’omutima gwange, okuyiga okwagala n’okuweereza abalala, n’okuba omwetegefu okuleka Katonda atambuza ekkanisa ye. Okwagala kwange okulwanirira obwenzi bw’ekkanisa kwatandika okugwawo mpola mpola. Mu kifo kyakwo ne kujja okwagalana n’amaanyi okulaga okwagala kwange eri Katonda nga njagala era nga ndziiza abantu be.

Era natandika okwesiga Mukama ennyo okusinga bwe nnali. Ku lunaku lwa 18 (Lwakutaano, Ssaabalaza 25), nawandika nti:

Natuuka ku kifo eky’obuwangwa bw’amaanyi ennyo ku makya ga leero ne ntuulira Mukama ne mmugamba nti amaanyi n’obumalirivu byali bimaze okuviiramu — nti singa waliwo ekirala kyonna kye yali akyayagala kukola mu kutta kulya kuno (era nnali nkakasa nti waliwo kubanga nkakasa nti y’eyantuma okukikola), yandina okutwala obufuzi mu ngeri ey’omuggundu ennyo — kubanga nze nnali mmaze ddala. Ndowooza nti oluvannyuma lw’ekiseera kino, ebyavaako okundaga ebyama ku Mista Suh [omulala eyali anziyiza] byatandika okuggyayo. Okulwana kuno tekusobola kunnyonnyolwa! Ntegeera nti waliwo ekintu kya ddala nnyo ekiri kugenda mu nsi y’omwoyo bwe nsaba. Si lutalo lutono okusinga singa nnali ne mpiso n’engabo ne ntandika okulwana — naye, mazima ddala, byonna biri mu Mwoyo. Nkakasa nti eno ye nsi eya ddala omuzannyo ogusinga obukulu gwegukwatirwamu n’obuwanguzi obwa ddala we buwangulirwa — engeri gye bikola n’engeri eby’okuddamu gye byeyolekamu biriba byangu nnyo okugeraageranya, ndowooza.

Nategeera nti enkola yonna ey’okukontana wakati wange ne Mista Park, obutamanya bwenna ne Jeff, okugenda kwange ku lusozi okusaba, n’ennaku zange ez’obunafu n’obutaliiko maanyi nga ndi nzekka ne Katonda ow’amaanyi, byonna byali mbeera ya kisera Katonda gyali anyikiriza. Yalina okufuna olunaku lw’okukola enkyukakyuka ennene. Ku lunaku lwa 21 (Lwakubiri, Ssaabalaza 28), nawandika nti:

… Mukama yantwala mu Kulira 3:27–33:

 “Kirungi omuvubuka okubeera wansi w’okubuulirirwa, kubanga kimuleetera okutuula yekka mu kasirise wansi w’ebiragiro bya Mukama, n’okugalamira ku ttaka n’amaaso nga gakwata ku nsi; awo ekisuubizo kijja gy’ali. Leka akkube ku kibanga kya kkono eri abo abamukuba, era akkirize n’ebivumirira byabwe eby’obulumi kubanga Mukama tajja kumuleka emirembe gyonna. Newakubadde Katonda amuleetera ennaku, era ajja kumusaasira, okusinziira ku bunene bw’okwagala kwe okutaggwaawo. Kubanga tayagala kubonyaabonya bantu wadde okubaleetera ennaku” (Living Bible).

Nkimanyi nti bino byali bigambo ebyanjogerwa nze nennyini, era nabisoma emirundi esatu oba ena, era nabisomera Mukama nga nkyusa mu muntu ow’olubereberye omulundi gumu. Kyali ng’ekintu ekikendeeza ku ggulumu lyange okumanya nti ye yennyini eyantwala wano okutta kulya n’okunyigiriza okuba omuwulize n’okuba omugumiikiriza, nga nze nali ndowooza nti nnali nsiibula ssaddaaka ya kutta kulya eri Mukama. Mazima ddala njagala okuyiga — naye ne nfuuka n’ennaku nnyo bwe ndowooza ku buwanvu bw’ennaku ezisigaddeyo. Mukama agamba bulijjo nti, “eddala emu (olunaku) ku ddala.”

Mu wiiki bbiri ez’oluvannyuma ez’okutta kulya, Katonda yanzingiramu nnyo ku kintu kyange eky’amazima — ego yange. Yannyigiriza okwambala endowooza y’omuddu. Obanga Mista Park yali antwalira bubi oba nedda, si kyo kyali ensonga. Kino kyannyiwa nnyo — nnali ndowooza nti kyo kyali ensonga yonna. Nedda, ensonga yali nti endowooza yange yali mbi. Mu wiiki ezo bbiri ez’oluvannyuma, mu kuyigirizibwa okw’emyama okuva eri Omwoyo Mutukuvu, nayiga nti ne bwe nnali ndi mutuufu mu by’ensonga, singa endowooza yange yali mbi, nali nze ndi mu kibi.

Ku lunaku lwa 29 (Lwakubiri, Ssaabalaza 5), nasoma era ne nnakwatagana ne Katonda mu kusaba okuva ku ssaawa 2:30 ez’oku makya okutuuka ku ssaawa 7:00 ez’olweggulo. Eno yali embeera ey’amaanyi ennyo mu kulwana kwange okw’abantu mu wiiki zonna omukaaga. Nnamanya nti Katonda yali akola ku nze, akomerera omubiri gwange ku musaalaba, aggya obulumi n’obukambwe mu nze, era akuzza omutima gw’omuddu. Oluvannyuma lw’okunnyonnyola okuyigiriza okweraliikirira okuva mu Kigambo kya Katonda, n’okukwatagana kwabyo ku ngeri gye nnali ntunuulira Mista Park, Katonda yangamba nti ssaali nnaalagira kumusala omusango, newakubadde nnali ntwaliddwa bubi oba amateeka ge gali nga tegaliimu bulungi. Ne nnawandika nti:

Ebitundu bitaano ebiri mu Abaruumi 14:3–4 byansobozesa nnyo. Bino bye bitaano ebiraga ensonga lwaki tetulina kusalira balala musango:

1. Katonda yabakkiriza;

2. Baduŋŋamu ba Katonda, si ba gwe;

3.  Bawandiikirwa eri Ye, si eri gwe;

4. Katonda ye yekka alina okubalabirira oba bali balamu oba bali bafu mu by’omwoyo;

5. Era Katonda asobola okubafuula okukola nga bwe batandiikira.

Kale! Ne bwe kiba nti mu ndowooza yange byonna byali bitali bwenkanya, nnina okubeera omuweereza. Omuweereza tayita ku kukola mirimu gyokka, wabula ateekwa okwewa wansi w’ekigendererwa kya mukama we. Kino kyali kizibu nnyo gye ndi ku nsonga ya Bwana Park. Naye singa kino kye Katonda ky’ayigiriza, njagala okugondera. Ai! Eno yali ssaawa nnya n’ekitundu ez’amaanyi nnyo, era byatuuka ne nkomerwa ddala amaanyi mu by’omwoyo ne mu mubiri ku ssaawa 1:00 ez’emisana.

Oluvannyuma lw’ekyo, natandika okufuna emirembe emitono nga nzija okwetoowaza mu bwegonvu, kubanga nze ndi muddu wa Katonda, nze okuba muddu wa Ssaabalangira Park — nga nkola eri Katonda. Simanyi bulungi kino bwe kiyunga ne okusaba okw’okusumulula ekkanisa, naye amakubo ge si makubo gaffe. Lino lye kkubo lye. Era ddala lisinga obulungi. Nsanyuse okufuna akalagirizo akasingawo okuva eri Mukama ku ngeri gye nnina okukoleramu ne Ssaabalangira Park kubanga mazima ddala saali mmanyi. Nnalowooza nti nnali nkola Katonda by’ayagala nga njanjagira ebizibu by’abasumba n’ebizibu byange ku bwanannyini ku lw’okwagaza ekkanisa okugaziwa nga njogera ne Ssaabalangira Park ku behalf ya basumba baffe n’amakanisa gaabwe. Kale, Katonda annyambe okubitabula bulungi.

Mu nnaku ezo ez’oluvannyuma mu kusiba kwange, nayiga n’obulungi obulungi amazima ag’ensi y’omwoyo. Newaakubadde nga saali mmanyi ntambula entuufu oba ebyokulwanyisa ebyakozesebwa amaanyi g’omwoyo, naye nnali nkimanyi nti waliwo ekigenda mu nsi etalabika. Ku lunaku lwa 31 (Lwakuna, June 7), nawandiika nti:

… kino lutalo! Omulabe agezaako okuziyiza buli kirungi. Ndi kuyiga bingi buli lunaku — kifuuse ng’ekintu ekirimu obulumi n’essanyu wamu. Kizibu eri omubiri — nnyo ddala — naye kirungi nnyo eri omwoyo. Ndi mu kuwulira, era mmanyi nti Katonda tayinza kunsaba kintu kyonna ekitali kya bulungi, era mmwesiga n’omubiri gwange.

Buli lunaku, olutalo lwagendanga mu maaso. Omubiri gwange gweyongera okunafuwa; omwoyo gwange ne gwegatta amaanyi. Ku lunaku lwa 33 (Lwamukaaga, June 9), nagamba nti:

Njagala okwogera nti luno lwali lunaku luzibu nnyo — mu by’omwoyo, mu by’omubiri, ne mu nneewulira. Bwe nnteekateeka ku by’okusaba ebyabadde bikolebwa — okusaba okulwanyisa emirimu gy’omulabe mu ffe — ntegeera nti kino kye kivuddeko. Mazima ddala lwali lutalo, era kino kye kimu ku mirimu. Enkya lunaku lwa kuwummula. Mukama atenderezebwe.

Emiganyulo Egibeerawo Obulamu Bwonna

Mu myezi n’emyaka egyayita oluvannyuma lw’ekizibu ekyo ekinene, nze nkizuula nti omwoyo gwange gusembedde nnyo. Nkuba ebikonko by’amaaso mu ngeri eyanguyira, sikyayomba nnyo, era ntya nnyo okwogera. Nkoowa okwemulugunya, nsaba nnyo, nsalawo nnyo okusalira abantu omusango, era ssiwulira nga ndi n’obuvunaanyizibwa okutereeza buli kintu ekikyamu. Nkuba obuvumirira obulungi, ndaba obulemererwa bwange mu bwangu, era mu ngeri ey’awamu mba musiriikirivu nnyo bwe mba mu kigezo. Ssente teziyiza kugula bintu bino. Kyandiba nga ssimanyi nti n’kyadde waliwo kye nayiga singa ssiwulira bantu abamu nga bakozesa ebizibu mu ngeri gye nali nkola edda. Bwe mbiraba, kinkakasa omulimu gw’ekisa Katonda kye yakozesa okunkyuusa.

Mu kusooka, nali nnekwatagira nnyo mu mmwoyo buli ndowooza gye nnateeka ku mmeeza okugiwa akadde. Mu ngeri etegeerese, ssaali nsobola kwawula nze ku ndowooza eyo. Buli kunenya ndowooza ne nkwata nga kunenya nze. Mu butabula bwange, ssaali nsobola kusanyukira mu kusalawo okwetongola okwetaagisa okwogera ku ndowooza nga tusinziira ku mugaso gwayo gwokka. Ku lunaku lwa 22 olw’okutta kulya, nawandiika nti:

Nnonoonye olw’obutakkiriza ne ndemwa okuyingira mu kuwummula kwa Katonda. Ekyo kye ntegeeza kiri nti bwe nnateeka endowooza yange mu kukubaganya ebirowoozo, okusinga nnateekebwa mu mmwoyo nnyo mu kugezaako okukakasa oyo yenna nti ndowooza ennungi, era sirina kukola nga nsinziira ku kukkiriza, wabula nga nsinziira ku kutamala kwange. Bwe nteeka endowooza zange mu kukkiriza — era buli kitali kya kukkiriza kibi — nsobola okulekera endowooza eyo okutikka oba okugwa nga tekindumya, nga nsinziira ku mugaso gwayo ogwennyini, ssi ku busobozi bwange okugituunda. Katonda, mpa amaanyi okusinga ekibi kino!

Emyaka bwe gyayita okuva lwe nawandiika ebigambo ebyo, bikyali bituufu. Kubanga abayizi bange bantu bakulu, tukozesa nnyo okukubaganya ebirowoozo mu kibiina. Endowooza nnyingi okuva mu kusoma wamu n’ebintu abayizi baffe aba diguli bye bayitamu, byonna bibeerawo buli lunaku mu kukubaganya ebirowoozo mu bwesige. Nga nzivugiraako era oluusi nga njigiriza butereevu, njigiriza abayizi bange okwogera ku ndowooza mu ngeri ey’obwongo. Bwe tuyiga okwogera ku ndowooza mu bwangu, omuwuliriza abeera wa ddembe okulowooza, okugigaana oba okugikkiriza nga yeerondera. Bwe tuba nga tukwatiddwa nnyo mu ndowooza zaffe, abo be tugamba bawulira nga tubalumba. Enkola ey’obutonde bwe luba lulumba, kwe kwerwanako. Mu kwerwanako, abantu tebeera ba maaso okukkiriza ndowooza zaffe. Okulumba kwaffe — ssi ndowooza yennyini — kwe kukyala “kubaggalawo.” Oba tuli mu kukubaganya ebirowoozo n’abayizi aba diguli oba mu kuleetera atakkiriza Kristo, okwogera mu bwangu kubeera kusanyusa nnyo. Mu mbeera zino, ekitimbagano kirungi okusinga ddamu.

Bwe nzija okudda mu birowoozo bino kati, nsanga nti tewali na kuzigereza mu butuufu okutuusa mu ttumbi lya 1979. Nnabimala kumenya mu mutwe, naye nga ndi ku lusozi, nga nzija mu kukutta kulya, okusaba, n’okuyiga Baibuli mu kiseera ky’ekizibu ekisinga obunene mu bulamu bwange, ebyo byayingira ddala mu mutima gwange. Emyezi ebiri oluvannyuma lw’okukutta kulya okwo, ekibiina ky’eddiini kyatukyuusa okuva e Taejon okutwala e Seoul, gye twamala emyaka ena emirala nga tutuukiriza omulimu omulungi ogw’okuyigiriza, okutandika amakanisa, n’okuddukanya emirimu gy’ekkanisa.

Olunaku olumu akawungeezi, Char nange twali mu kusoma Baibuli n’abayizi e Seoul. Twali tutudde wansi mu ngeri y’Abakorea, omu ku basomesa baffe mu ssomero lya Baibuli — omusumba mu kibiina kyaffe — n’atandika okunzivumirira mu maaso g’abayizi. Kubanga bwe naba n’ebiseera, nnali nzironda okuzannya omupiira n’abaana bange mu kifo ky’okugenda mu kusaba kwa wiiki okwa wakati, omusumba oyo yagamba abayizi nti ndi munakyewa era ndi mugayaavu. Nasigala nga siriiko kye njogera nga abayizi babalaala mu maaso olw’ensonyi. Olwava ku njogera ye, nayimusa omukono ne nsaba olukusa okwogera. Ne njogera nti, “Bw’oba oyagala okumanya engeri gye ndi munakyewa, nsobola okubagamba n’ebirala ebisingawo ku ebyo by’omaze okwogera. Kino kye kimu ku by’obulamu byange bye mpangirira buli lunaku, era omusomesa ali mu bulungi — ndi muntu munakyewa ddala,” ne ntegeera awo. Nga sinnakkutta kulya, bwe nnali nkyali muntu alwana, nze si nandikoze kino. Naye okuva ku kukutta kulya okwo, kati kino kyafuuka empisa yange mu kulaba ebizibu. Sikyandikomyewo mu mpisa za nnamadde; enviini empya esinga obwongoofu. Oluvannyuma, omuntu yanzannyira nti abayizi baali bewuunyisa nnyo era nga boogera bokka ku ngeri gye nnakozesa okuzivirira okwo mu maaso g’abantu. Nasanyuka nnyo nti nakoze ekituufu.

Emisomo egimu egyayita, wano mu Amerika, omuyizi yannyonnyola mu maaso g’ekibiina kyonna. Ssaalwana naye. Ssaazirirako. Nayogera ku bibuuzo bye byokka. Oluvannyuma, abayizi bangi bagamba nti engeri gye nakozesa ekiseera ekyo yabayamba okulaba nti omuyizi oyo yali alina empisa mbi. Kino tekandibaddewo singa twembi twalwananga.

Tewali muntu ayagala bizibu. Tewali muntu ayagala kubonabona mu mubiri, mu mwoyo, mu nneebalansi, oba mu birowoozo. Neego zaffe nazo teziyagala kubonabona. Naye Omukugu mu kukolebwa kw’ekyuma amanyi bulungi engeri y’okulongoosa ekyo ky’akola. Amanyi amaanyi g’ekyuma ky’ali mu kukema, amanyi obubutwa bw’omuliro, amanyi n’obubutwa bw’amazzi agakyamya, era amanyi n’essaawa entuufu ey’okulongoosa ebyuma byo byonna. Abamu ku ffe twetaaga omuliro ogubugumu n’okunyigirizibwa okunene ennyo okusobola okuba abekkiririzaamu okukyuka, okwetoba, n’okufa eri ffe bennyini. Ebizibu byonna bijja kuyita, naye ebirungi bye tuyiga biyinza okusigala mu bulamu bwaffe bwonna n’okutuuka mu mirembe gyonna. Katonda ayagala nnyo okutulongoosa okusinga okutuwonya obulumi.